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You were a dream come true
I instantly fell in love,
the first time I saw you
I was amazed something so
precious was growing inside me
I listened to your heartbeat and saw your tiny feet
I was the happiest mother to be
Its
a boy but he has a cyst
Its a 1 in 25,000 chance
A syndrome I didnt even know to exist
I was forced
to make a choice.
I had to do what I thought was best for you.
You wouldnt have been too much trouble.
That wasnt
the issue.
I never wanted you to be in pain
Dont think that you were unwanted
They said letting you go would
be more humane
I never got to see your sweet face
I wish that you were here with me
But I know that youre in
a better place
Someday Ill be with you an infinite amount of years
Together well have an eternity of happiness
Because
in Heaven there are no tears
Well, yesterday I found out you were actually a boy. That was a surprise. I miss you. I miss feeling you kick. I'm sorry
that all of this happened. I'd like to get a necklace with your name on it if I can find one. I love you so much.
09/19/03
I feel so sad tonight. I should be six months pregnant today. I feel so sad that you were sick. I don't understand
why this has all happened. It seems so unfair. I was looking forward to being a mom so much. Everything is such a mess. I
miss you. I know you're happy where you are. I wish I could be with you. I love you.
09/21/03
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